TIMELESS

Friday, January 28, 2005
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//``~sInCe sCh iS sO HELL ...~``\\

//``~sInCe sCh iS sO HELL ...~``\\

Why the HELL must we go to school?!?!

I feel so dead in my class. They're like... so smart, so divided, so... different. Maybe this is only the 1st month... But... haix I dunno wat to think also... I just feel so damn lousy in that class. Acedemically, maybe, but more on my inside. I still love to sit ard those e6 pple last year. I enjoy their jokes and enjoy joking with them. I can talk and laugh so freely with them. Guess so are the rest of my classmates. Wonder if its always like that... But I got a feeling it's very difficult to break past bonds and form new ones.

Had shu fa today... Very funny lahx... XiEn always make me laugh de... But seems she also got her prob of her own but she say I dun understand. Maybe I really dun. But juz 2 let her know I can be her gd fren if she needs one. =) Anyway, she ate black paint, again... hahahaha.... I wonder if she'll be addicted to it. First time I dared her too, and it took me ages to stop laughing to drop a dot of paint on her tongue. And she swallowed it. I laughed my guts out. Today she also. She very brave de lahx. I dare her to, and she'll do it. I hate the stupid new buddy system. It's like so lame lOr... Who's teaching, who's learning, who's still talking? Well, Anna kinda on lahx, but me want to just have fun... Head always nag nag nag lahx... SianXxxx...

My orh ceh very bad lahx... red red, purple purple, green green... Inside also hard hard de... They all say I must rou... hAix... Pain siaXx...

JoLynn came bk frm NJC today... in grey uniform, sexy short skirt, and her class photo. Very little pple. Her class got the actor from Living With Lydia... That Jordon or whatever... who acted fei yi's son... Then we chatted for a while. Xue got interview... Mr Noel Koh want to interview her as she's foreign student... then I pei her lor... after that went to 3E5... WingHim and Vanessa practising erhu there... now I know... WingHim is zhonghu... and Vanessa is gaohu... Vanessa that time at camp still secretive secretive dun want to tell me wat her instrument is... Then I played for a while there, laughed for a while there... and its on to calligraphy LOrx...

PS: chong shang yun xiao tonight da jie ju... I hope its a happy ending... You know or not, yesterday almost for the length of half of the show I was crying in front of the TV screen... =(

10:59 AM;
☆ I want to keep a star in my pocket ☆

Friday, January 21, 2005
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//``~sUrViVoR oF cAmP~``\\

//``~sUrViVoR oF cAmP~``\\

Am bk... with a heavy heart, a heavy brain, a body so covered with bruises, and a skin so cooked you can eat it.

DON'T LOOK AT ME. I'm a monster!! I got SKIN DISEASE!! T_T. I'm so terribly sunburnn... *sMaShEs mIrRoR uP* But well, despite the pain all over and the countless blueblacks on my legs, I still think it's worth it baHx... Camp... Damn tiring lOrx... buddEn... No gd dE... coZz of time constraint... me mUm also say too big a grp lE... not everyone got chance... two, and it's TWO thIngY I want to try but no time LOrx.... The rock climbing and flying fox... wAhhHhhh... Come camp nv play flying fox = no camp @ all lOrx... well I'm exaggerating but still very sad LAhx...

Day 1 - Wanted to get a cab coz my luggage is DAMN heavy! No cab, and I almost late ok. Got away wib that. Got to know those instructors and everything... Prepare lotsa stuffs, then its over to May Adventure Centre. My instructor Erina made me vice-leader jux bcoz my butt not on the floor. wth... heck care... I nv do anything de... Not lyk sum1 who's super know-it-all plus incredible smart alec and wants to do everything. Oh goody goody in everyone's eye! But not mine. Anyway, done wif all the unimportant stuffs lyk briefing and such, first station we went to Rock Wall. So high!!! Actually I really very scared LOrx... given my experience at p5 camp when I fell off the rock wall and almost died. Newayx, in the end me and Vera wanted to try lOrx... We even do work for the belayer, doing anchor stuffs and rope management... budden no time lOrx... so she say we get to be first during the High Element. Thx very much lor. HIgh Elements look ok. But when up there, I almost died LOrX... So high... and I 1st... I tot it's ok de... hAix... but I still climb lor... And balanced across the two wooden poles hung on chains and managed to survive. yEa... But it was so shaky it's quite scary. Budden hoR, very ci ji LEhx! So me and LiQiao went to try others. Second we did the walking on string and holding wooden poles one... haha dunno how 2 say lahx... that one do until my hand pain manXx! And on top got one bee lOr... xia si wo le. Then while I was climbing down e6'04 screamed across the field for me to jiayOux... and i so happy.=) Third I did balancing on some swings one... So shaky!!!!!!! But I did it all the same. The rest of the day we did General elements too... then meals, bathe, sleep. Oh yea, there's the blind man's trail when we blindfold ourselves and walk round the sch. Not bad lAhx. Just walk, instruct, listen and bang into things occasionally Lorx. yea then, me and LiQiao reported late after bath coz we refilling bottle. Might haf detention. Fuckk. PMS Jag looks so bithcy lor. Sleep was ok. The floor very hard. The fan right above me. Freezing. Woke up so damn early. Tired lahx...

hOoooOoo... tell ya a secret yeaXx?? I fell in love wib a instructor laHx!!! Curious?? Want to know who?? Don't tell u! hEex. Frm day 1 onwards, i always tou tou look at him... We even got jing ju li jie chu lehXx. But lyk oso lyk for 3 days onli laHx. Envy the class who had him as instructor...

Day 2 - Team craft - boring. Abseiling, quite ok! Thrilling to be sitting on nothing and coming down, but this cannot be compared to my ZIP LINE! bOoHoOoo... abseiling is nothing compared to super fox... T_T. Erina lahx... she count the 7th person to go abseiling... suay suay I'm 7th... haiXx.... then no time do fox le... Also haf to gif others a chance... HaiXx... Leadership activities... okok lAhx... The Trust Fall so scary LAhx... maybe I too heavy LEhx... They lyk very xing ku then caught me oNE... haha... MEals, bath, sleep... Bathing was fun with so many pple in the toilet. So dark and scarY oso... especially when crossing the library. Can see thru inside empty empty de... then I said... what if there's someone standing inside... HAHAHA... freakyy. Saw my bruises. I dunno I so pin leHX! When I climbing I also dun care if I hit myself or what... then hit le also dun care... When finally can rest, I all blacky and bluey. GroSss...

Campfire ZAN lahx!! Our class cheer gr8!!! We very united and sporting... We cheer very loud and we got gd leaders also... lyk MingHan and MuiTeng... We did the carebear stare thingy... our trademark... so cute. Then got what funky chicken thingy, dui mian de nu hai (tong xue) kan guo lai and the ganbatte thingy... All very fArnIe de laHX! Campfire emcee also funny, do the activites sing the songs also funny... screaming was cool... All zao sia le lahXx... There're many things that sound familiar lOrx... p5 camp do before le.

Day 3 - Do nothing but talk pack talk pack. Instructors say we're the BEST. Even tho we didn't win best grp. Erine say a lot lame jokes and gif a lot lame riddles... Funny Lorx... Some I hear b4 le lAhx... After that it's home... Bye to camp and all instructors... T_T. My skin hurts lyk hell... Can't wait to go hm. Eat lunch wif Rach and YuanYin first then we take taxi hm together... home feels gr8... Finally can catch up with all the TV I'd missed... this is very important de, ok.

My friends - Some are very nice, some are too arrogant to be nice, some are too weird, some are too funny... Well, mostly they're not bad, but they lyk to sabo which I think not very gd. Newayx, I lyk them lahXx =) zen me shuo they'll be wif me for the nx two yrs or so lOrx... There's this guy jason who's quite strong and keeps shaking, so he gave our team the carebear stare trademark... And there's HuiYin, ShiQi or Siqi can't rmb, and Elsha (sasa)... We bathe in the same toilet one... wait for each other, very hapPy nehx. There's Veronica, Andrea, Vanessa... Another Vanessa, Brain we call her, with her Pinky Jia Yi... There's Gina, Geena, Suet Ting... And Vera, cool cool de, but actually quite nice dE... Not forgetting e6'04 frenz rach grace and liqiao... There're others lahx, but I can't possibly name everyone out... All in all they're my classmates and I'll be with them for the nx two yrs or so... Happy or not, lyk or dun lyk, they'll be with me... But I guess I'll be happy with them, and will also lyk them as gr8 frenx... =)

yAwnXxx... three days gone so fast. Camp is over le... Not matter how gd or bad it is, there's this amt of experience I'd gather and nothing can destroy it from within me... Here it is, memories, inside my brain, which i will bring with me through my years of growth and life...

2:48 PM;
☆ I want to keep a star in my pocket ☆

Monday, January 17, 2005
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//``~HeAvEn~``\\

//``~HeAvEn~``\\

Just finished reading a really nice, meaningful and spiritually-fulfilling book called 'The 5 People You Meet In Heaven' by Mitch Albom. Really a gr8 book... Some parts even brought tears to my eyes... Oh God... Really looking forward to 'Tuesdays With Morris'... Couldn't seem to find it. I rmb it was one of the books in the eng hol hw list... hMmmMm... Well, thx to my bro for recommending this bk... Hope he's not too sad yea? A gr8 boy deserves gr8 love! He'll meet his angel someday... Anyway, talking abt the book, it tells abt this guy named Eddie who died while saving a girl from a falling cart in an amusement part. After that he went to heaven where he met five pple who told him different stories and taught him different lessons. He saw a wider picture, a different beauty. He was once so depressed, thinking his life was a waste, just like himself. But now, he realized his existence on Earth. He learnt that one thing affects another. He leanrt that strangers are just family he have yet to come to know. He learnt that sacrifice is not losing something precious, but passing it on to someone else.

This book can really make someone not afraid to die. Thinking that there'll be so much to learn, see and experience up there in heaven, what's so scary abt dying? Yea yea... I know it's just a story and that no one has ever seen heaven including the author, but then... believing is the only way to make a fairytale real.

Anyway, guess what?? I'm in choir syf... Can't believe it, really. I know I'm extremely talented and musically-inclined (kidding!), but I never taught of singing in ZH sch choir! Fated, maybe, coz I passed the audition with tremendous flying and shooting colours... hOooOooo... Dunno to be sad or happy... Yea, singing is my passion, my joy, my life... I sing everyday... But that dosen't make me a super music girl, like what Mrs Wong ASSUMES. hAix. Honestly speaking, I couldn't really catch up with that French song... wAaAaaa... but I'll do it someday. With my voice.

Tml got peer.... WaaAaaAaa.... I repeat, well maybe I nv said it b4 but here goes: I SUCK AT MATHS. Not to say normal and tech maths is so difficult that I would pull my hair out, but... but... I can't teach! I can't control and discipline! WaHhHhh

PS: XinYi... Why u not in wif me... hAiz. T_T To think that I pulled you all the way from maths hw, to ms Lam, to resource rm, but you still pao qi wo... haix... Lucky there's HuiMing, Naomi, Eliz, Amanda, and Alex there too...

PS(2): I like Gong Fu Zu Qiu! Hope Gong Fu Dui can kick the ball agn... VICTORY!!!

PS(3): Hope camp can be fun...

2:01 PM;
☆ I want to keep a star in my pocket ☆

Wednesday, January 5, 2005
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//``~2nD dAy & rEsOlUtIoNs~``\\

//``~2nD dAy & rEsOlUtIoNs~``\\

Just another day... First thing BIG I did was to talk in front of the class on that stupid ke wen called 'meng hen'... that CAI~ always bully me one... dunno y zhang and cai all lyk to call 'mingxia' so much...

Then, PE teacher Mr Eswaran punish us by asking us to run three rounds around the level. First round coz we line up in one straight line, or was it he want us to run one? Aiya dunno lahx, then we walk lORz, for a while only!! But he punish us another round. Then some boys never run. When he ask also no one own up so he ask us run agn 3rd round. yao wo de ming ah. Never warm up some more. And I so long nv exercise le. My leg so pain woRx. After that naughty boys get to run another 3 rounds themselves lORx.

I dunno how to say this, but Yeo really can make pple laugh de. Today so bored... want to slp liaO. Physics, chem all so zzzZZZzzz one... Then Yeo came in for bio, and for the first time in the day our whole class started laughing at all the lamey and bian taiee things he said. He said his little Joshua a bit lyk Jack-Jack in Incredibles, say his baby like to bite his nipples. Then he talk abt my enemy, cockroaches, how they sex. But when he said he quite cute quite handsome very humble all this, the class so dead lehx. 2E6 know how to uRgGg and laugh at him... This class no reaction de. Dunno y. He may be funny, but I think he still not good lAhx, coz he last yr always say me. hAiXxx... Wonder if it is my good luck or foul luck he's my bio teacher...

PS: I miss 2E6... alotalotalotalotxxxx.......

PS(2): XueNan got elected chairperson of her class!!! Hahahahaha... Too bad wasn't there to see how she looked... Must be Bao lahx, always sabo dE. hEe~~

Okok... here's something new... Remember on Sun two days ago, Father in church asked all of us what's our new year resolutionS. He even walked ard with the mike maNx!! Lucky nv call me. Pple who got called said things lyk eat less, become more manly, do well for exams... got one even sorethroat!! Haha... Father very funny, love him and his talks. Well talking about changes, hopes and wishes... it's time I think abt mine too.

``~NEW YEAR RESOLUTIONS~``

*Be happier - be more optimistic and not keeping stressing myself up

*Be braver - not afraid to change, not afraid to try, not afraid to speak up, not afraid to fall

*Be more sociable - get to know my relatives and make more frenz

*Be a nicer person - to be more like God, not so rude to my mum, not so evil unto my fellow friends

*Have more faith in God

*Get good grades! Not be so lazy! But that dosen't mean don't watch TV ok

*Be neater

*Learn how to cook

*Be healthier - Get lesser ulcers, fall sick less often = become more bubbly and pink

*Stop growing in height. And I mean it.

*Do well in piano

*Don't, and I said don't in any freaking case, grow fat

*Stop writing longwinded blogs - hahahaha~~ Ok this is not counted...

YEah so that's all manX! =)=)=) A long way ahead of me, and I think I should look in front of me, not behind, not at my feet. In front. Right in front of me. =)

11:08 AM;
☆ I want to keep a star in my pocket ☆

Tuesday, January 4, 2005
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//``~1sT daE~``\\

//``~1sT daE~``\\

SUX~

What kind of Sec 3 life is this?!?! All the teachers are dead boring~~~~~ And I hate that CAI!!!!!!!!! Can't stand this place... my class isolated from the rest of the world laidat... Just to say, first day is way too bad.... T_T I want to get out of this school right now... I dun want to face all the teachers, not pretty-but-useless-face nor lao ren chi dai... dun want dun want!!! I want to tao~~~

T_T

2:08 PM;
☆ I want to keep a star in my pocket ☆