TIMELESS

Saturday, February 26, 2005
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//``~uNsUrE~``\\

//``~uNsUrE~``\\

aIya very sad lahx... especially when two days ago I almost slipped... It was lyk dis... I wanted to zhuang shui @ the toilet, and a grp of guys walking in front of me. They blocking my way, so i walked faster to overtake them. Then @ the toilet door there I almost slipped... I look lyk some clumsy elephant... Dunno wheter the guys got laugh @ me or not... I so paisEh lOrXx...

Choir today very fun and funny~ Laughed a lot... Hope I dun get kicked out... You know, I placed all my hopes in syf.

Wonder if its my prob... But there seems to be a barrier... You know, invisible obstacle? Something's blocking me. i feel so stucked. Surrounding by walls or something... isolated, alone, sad... I can't, I can't break free from my comfort-zone. I really can't. I'm so stuck inside the unreal reality I think I might go crazy. There's something realli wrong... I think this world's so unfair, different from what I think it would be. Maybe this is growing up. People always say, you grow up, you c and experience more, and you'll feel heavier. And as days go by, I feel so bloated maybe someday I'll burst lyk a balloon. A rubber band can't go on stretching forever and ever.

I hate stupid cCcHhhAaIiiRrRrpEeRrsOoonn of calligraphy. To me, she's lyk she's got a rotting veggie stuck to her hair and is still so proud of it. She's always picking on me during calligraphy. Yeah I've got a mouth on my face and I use it to talk, does she got a prob wif that?? What a bitch.

PS: Great. If I continue to waste and dream life away lyk that, it'll go on forever.

2:50 PM;
☆ I want to keep a star in my pocket ☆

Thursday, February 24, 2005
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//``~oNe aFtEr aNoThEr N aNoThEr N aNoThEr N......~``\\

//``~oNe aFtEr aNoThEr N aNoThEr N aNoThEr N......~``\\

And u noe wat i mean. Tests... T_T... It's lyk for now my Geog and SS are finally over but nx Mon is the starting of my 2nd tests. And my first has just finished only... Even the soil needs time to lie fallow... Yet we students seemed to be continuously drained of our nutrients. Sad case... hAix... but e5 is even worse. Their test 1 and test 2 on the same day. It's catastrophe. Really.

Basically, geog and SS was ok... just that need to memorize, vomit and write loads... I dunno what I'm writing, can't even breathe and my hand so pain... It's lyk, panic, for 45 mins. Anyway, it's over and I'm glad to chase after my TV shows... =)=)=)

PS: Pls tell me y you r sad dear couz... Life is not all abt crushes and falling out of love ok? You still haf ur family and cousins to love yoU!!! And pls think more abt shuai ges that are not within ur reach, so you'll feel better. =P

2:40 PM;
☆ I want to keep a star in my pocket ☆

Saturday, February 19, 2005
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//``~haLf DeAd~``\\

//``~haLf DeAd~``\\

I'd finally survied this week. It was a difficult task. I thought I wouldn't make it. It's like 'Survival'. Only onE thing kept me going...

I'm having such a bad cough and throat!!! I keep sweating, I'm suffering from serious lack of sleep, I'm in pain!!! Help!!! My head aches. I'm seriously sick... I didn't go to school on Tues. I almost wanted to go home today while @ sch, but lucky I felt better, thinking I'd juz skip choir. Then YiTing say need MC or else seek permission frm Wong 1st, so i decided, what bloody black and bad luck I'm in these days, and went for choir. It wasn't really such hell to go choir. It's just that I paiseh mAhx... everybody will be happily singing then I'll be coughing... But lucky got HuiMing aR... She's the best maNx! And my juniors and all nice frEnx... Thx to them, I'd finally finished by day. Ought to give me a certificate for this!

Damn. I'm hungry. Newayx, I'm still feeling trashy now, all sick and tired. And I cough like some lung cancer patient! Enough of my illness. Let's talk abt books. I'd nv really read, but ever since '5 pple you meet in heaven', I so into those touching, interesting, attractive... books. Those that can touch my heart. Ok, I'm done with 'Memoirs of a Geisha'. Sayuri's life kinda sad huh... But very touching. She's such a brave woman... And, her life for one man makes me think how love can actually be that strong and... and... it's indescribable, for you to wait and love just for this one man, until when many years pass, do you finally realize that he loves you too and both of you spend the rest of forever together... It's like that you know. Something so... noble. I'm reading The Da Vin Ci Code now. Loads of pple told me it's gr8, Mum, Deenise, Kor, the whole of ZHSS... I'm so honoured to hold onto one of the 5 copies my sch has purchased. I'm into the starting part. Pretty scary LEhx.

PS: I want to thank my TV and my day & night dreamx for keeping me going... Eh, I found a shuai ge lahx!!! Lucky me!!!

PS(2): I'm coughing, my throat and head's aching. How? Audition how? Tests how? I feel so crappy in sch these days. I can't concentrate. Told ya I'm 1/2 dead. T_T

PS(3): My scalp's itching? What's wrong? I feel trash. lousy. stinky. All I want now is escape.

2:07 PM;
☆ I want to keep a star in my pocket ☆

Monday, February 14, 2005
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//``~hApPy~``\\

//``~hApPy~``\\

Yesterday was a fun day~! Though I had a bad throat and an irritating cough. Ard 11 in the morn, I saw lotsa messages in my hp. Bl call me go online chat, and I did, sleepy and everything. They say want to watch movie. I said ok lOr. Then so qiao YY asked me whether got go Mr Yeo hse, so i called her along for the movie too. Rach also going along. I met YY at Hougang interchange, then Rach late, so we went up the bus 1st and Rach later will join us. We gave her the che pai hao ma. Then laidat loR, after countess planning and talking on the phone on the bus, Elwyn went to buy the tics first. Everyone was lucky to have arrived @ the cinema @ J8 on time. Total 8 pple went to watch the movie. Me, Rachel, YuanYin BakLiang, Elizabeth, LiQiao, WeiSheng and Elwyn.

The movie is called 'Constantine'. I really really didn't know what's this movie abt b4 going into the cinema. YY say fighting one. haha... But I nv see the advertisement b4 also. Bl say the lead very shuai, she and Eliz crazy over him, so sure nice one. Then ok lahx. See lOR. Then the starting part so scary!! I tot it's horror show loR. Then I felt wo bei qi pian lE! I can't stand horror!!! Then still watch lahx, actually not very scary lahx. A bit gross onli. Lotsa rotting skin. But the plot and the effects very nice. But that guy very shuai mehX?? Not realli mahx. I ate hotdog bread while watching. My throat so pain...

After that went yoyo hse. Mor epple joined us. Got Anna, Gabriel, TeckGhee, HaoZi... ErM... did I miss any bois out?? I not very sure. But got over 10 of us there lahx... Mr Yeo so shocked to see so many pple visiting him. Played with Joshua! He soooOoo cute!! Not lyk his daddy. =P He will out of the blue look lyk want to cry le, then we will all OooOohhHH!!!! Then suddenly he'll smile agaiN! So cute!!

After that went CP shopping. Call hm and Dad say why so long nv come hm they all waiting for me to da gu hse. I so shocked. I forgot haf to go da gu hse!! Or izzit no one remind me? So I rush to the taxi stand @ HM lOr. Lucky still in time. Went there to eat. My throat so pain! Alicia got a new cat called Ally. She very bad de, always bully me ask me cut this cut that, then even want to scare me wif her cat and some stupid coffee advertisement. Then she cheated me of my blog link without giving me hers. hUmPh!!!! And then, she said I'm mad.

After that went home le. Such a happy and tired day. Stupid flu loRx! Only imperfectioNnn....~~~

12:45 PM;
☆ I want to keep a star in my pocket ☆

Friday, February 11, 2005
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//``~uNlUcKy nEw yR~``\\

//``~uNlUcKy nEw yR~``\\

I'm sick on da nian chu er... wAaHHhHHhh T_T... bad luck LAhx... Must be a sign saying I won't lead this year well... The highest temp. I went was 38.6 and my head and throat hurts so much... I wonder how to sing tml... when i take in a deep breath, I'll feel lyk coughing... =(

Chu xi and da nian chu yi was ok lAHx... chu xi went to eat huo guo at grandma place. This is the first new yr without ah jia... feels very funny... Chu yi I wore the skirt and T-shirt I bought @ orchard and went to grandma's hse agn. Sang some songs with Deenise. Love he sheng!! Sounds very nice. But Simin so paiseh, always dun want to sing one. After that went da bo hse... Baby Belinda so cute!!! So tiny one.. and seldom cry... what a cute, pretty, obedient girl, juz lyk me. =P

Today everyone went to bai nian agn and I felt so sick I didn't go. They now at mama hse... haix... and here I am, in this empty hse, typing my blogg... =(

PS: xi guan da shao da jie ju le... T_T What a nice ending. Love it. So touching. Then Mum also watched tian guo de jie ti da jie ju. I watched with her. Jing Shu died lAhx... so sad, but I was too sick to feel sad. Plus, I nv really watch the beginning. No time. St2pid hw and flu...

2:15 PM;
☆ I want to keep a star in my pocket ☆

Monday, February 7, 2005
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//``~sHoPpInG @ oRcHaRd~``\\

//``~sHoPpInG @ oRcHaRd~``\\

Yesterday went shopping with Rach, YuanYin and Bakliang, from Heeren all the way to Far East. Orchard a lot a lot pple, see a lot frenz we noe, and of course had a hard time squeezing thru the crowd and some teeny weeny shops. I dun think there realli suits me bAhx... too fashion already... hahaha... But it's quite fun to just go sightseeing around lahx... Everything abt the same, lyk those pinky clothes with tie. Had to sacrifice Rach and Bakliang's legs worx... coz they jiao suan... have to follow me ard to search for new year clothes... in e end I bought a skirt and a T-shirt, plus a slingbag... I spent $60++... Me Rach and YY also shared a 3-4-$10 earrings... Overall it was not bad lahx... except for an unfriendly black-man-who-speaks-Chi-and-shocked-me guy who cheat our money... We dun think he real lORx... and he sound lyk forcing us de lOrx... Fierce fierce one also... say YY racist... he da pian zi aR... Then got one shop Aunty scold us lOrx. What the heck does she know man... Go and ask ur salesgirls lahx... I curse you yi bei zi jia bu chu qu ar. Very tired yesterday... went hm ard 8 plus... Xue very bad de. Mayb she dun lyk to go out wif us lorX.

Am watching wo he jiang shi you ge yue hui III now... My bro dl one... Not bad... But juz started onli, dun realli understand... XiaoLing and TianYou nv realli grow old, but FuSheng so big liao!! When I watch I and II he onli a small chubby boy lOrx... now so tall le. XiaoLing very pretty and cool as usual, no wonder I lyk her so much last time, and am still lyking her now. Me and Simin used to mo fang her. The lin bing dou zhe thingy sounds so familiar! I'm lyk going bk to the past... Zhu xie!! Hahaha... This show very new... I think filmed last yr only... coz they keep mentiong yr 2004 and XiaoLing also take out her hp which is Nokia and got camera one... hAx~~ Longing to watch mOrEee~~~

PS: Chinese new year = money = food = tian guo de jie ti =)

1:58 PM;
☆ I want to keep a star in my pocket ☆

Saturday, February 5, 2005
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//``~iF LiFe wAs jUsT fUn...~``\\

//``~iF LiFe wAs jUsT fUn...~``\\

...I won't be happy.

Only with tears and sadness, setbacks and failures, pains and anguish, can a person truly treasure happiness when it comes. =) That's life right? All play, all fun, all smiles, living is nothing already. Just plain.

Life is a balance of everything. We go down today, we go up tomorrow. We cry this minute, we smile the next. It rains, but sooner or later, the sun will eventually rise. If you'd just think, you'd see how God apparently takes away something from you, but gives you something better in return. Something you'd probably won't treasure, won't like, but actually it is yours, it'll be yours, and it'll do you good. That is why we all say humans take things for granted. Only by losing, do we know how to treasure. But, why do we them? As in, why do we even need anything?

We come to this earth having nothing at all, and we will leave, with nothing at all too.

Might think I'm probably crazy, too tired to think straight, but I feel this way now. Maybe I'm growing up, but I think I can see a wider scope. I don't really care much about other things that might come my way. I look at now, this very moment when I sit in front of the screen and type my heart into this machine. So, this is what we call the 'present', a gift, from God. We can't go back, we can't move faster, we'll only have to go with time, to follow the speed of the hands of the clock, moving forward, very slowly, yet somehow, quickly. We can't do anything much. Regrets of yesterday and the unknowns of tomorrow, we have no control. That is why we can, and are asked to, treasure this "present".

Choir is fun. I get to do what I like to do, get to laugh with new and old friends, get to relieve some stress. I don't find it a chore, really. And I just realized, HuiMing has a really really great sense of humour. Why didn't I know that earlier?! She is just as lame and childish as me. And that's what we call each other too.

Finally... a week of tests over... I still have 3 more on my list though. But I won't be thinking abt those now... Chinese New Year rmb??? Let me get some money first before studying... hehehehe...

We'll be growing up real fast... I don't want to realize, at the very last minute, that I had wasted my time as a child.

My dear TV ar... Let me marry you. Or am I already your wife? Siamese twins, maybe. -winkx-

All I ever pray for now, is to pass my tests @ the very least...

PS: I'm so sleepy... zZzZzzzz... But still has the energy to end my day with a smile. =)

2:42 PM;
☆ I want to keep a star in my pocket ☆